An injury, some inspiration & some big thanks....

I have been meaning to post here for the last couple of days, but with limited mobility and a busy workplace, I just havent found the time...

Let me take you back.... (Close your eyes, oh wait - dont, cos then you cant read!!).

Saturday - crappy weather but a whole lot of mojo...
About 2pm the clouds parted and the sun shone. I said the magical words to Penni and next thing you know we were off on our walk / jog. This jog, I love it. When I first started, it took me an hour and quarter. I got it down to 55mins, then added about another kilometre onto it. I got it down to 45mins on Saturday, and I didnt stop once (ok, once to pic up dog poo, but that was it). I was on a natural high. Slept great that night too.

Sunday - more mojo than ever before...
Woke up with a bit of foot pain. Mainly when I walked up or down the stairs. Made an affort to limit stairs. Weather was worse. Again, around 2pm the clouds parted and Penni and I were off again. This time I added more to it. About half way around or jog I felt my foot start to ache a bit while running over some uneven ground (tree roots in the park). I didnt care, I was on fire!! I kept running. Got home 50min and 4 seconds later (can you tell I am competitive - I time to the second!). Nearly colapsed, realised 50mins is a long time to jog. Didnt mind, downed a bottle of water, jumped in the shower then spent some much needed time on the couch relaxing while the dog snoozed in the corner. 4pm came, decided to head to Westfield for some shopping. About an hour into perusing the sales in Myer, severe pain. Made a quick purchase then headed to Coles. Started to know I was in trouble. Got home, sat down for 15mins. Couldnt get up. Couldnt walk. My foot was about 30% bigger than the normal one and black. Iced it. Elevated it and took some nurofen (hey I am also a volunteer for St Johns Ambulance, so I knew what to do). Cried for a while, then a bit longer, then took myself off to bed after a long hobble up the stairs!

Monday:
Ouch. Still bruised, still swollen. More nurofen, and a bit more ice. Posted on the daily Core chat that I was feeling sorry for myself and knew my running days were halted for a while. Didnt really want to pay money to see a Physio (nothing against them, my friend is even a physio) but I knew what I had done wrong, I knew what I had to do - but I was hoping that maybe I was wrong. And was alsop a bit scared that it was worse than I had thought. Made an appointment and got a very handsome young guy called Mark. Well youngish, but nice and polite and very cute, made it all a bit easier anyway haha!! Told me pretty much what I knew and said he was pleased I was doing all the right things - except I shouldnt have gone on Sunday (yeah, I know that - heindsight is my friend!!). Told me that I needed to stay off it. No walking, no more than a block. Definately no running, no kicking, no flexing my toes, no ballet, no nothing. He wanted to see me on Thursday after the swelling and bruising goes down and if it doesnt, them I'll be on crutches (pleased to say its looking much better so fingers crossed).

Now here is where the update finishes and my feelings and silliness kicks in. I felt so 'robbed'. I cant describe it in words really. I was gutted. I had put so much work in over the last 14 weeks, I mean my jogging time and distance was just one thing. I had also started to crave my jogs, and crave my big long walks with Penni. We both loved getting out, especially when the weather was nice. One day we set off walking, came back 2 hours later after walking through more than 8 suburbs! I also know that my walking and jogging time was totally mine. I switched off, and since having that time, I have become a more relaxed and calmer person. I knew it was gone, and I knew I had been overdoing it. I was angry at myself, disappointed and I was also in a lot of pain.

Monday afternoon I went shopping. On the plus side I was fitting into clothes 2 sizes smaller than I had been wearing. On the boards people were giving me some great advice, Cherryripe reminded me that I needed to watch my portion sizes more than ever. I thanked her because without her saying that I wouldnt have given it any thought. That night, I still didnt. I went back for seconds, and then even cooked a potato in the oven for some chips. It was all CORE, but I didnt care.

Tuesday. I found somewhere that did deep water aqua fitness classes and I thought OK, I can do this. Lunchtime came and normally I'd have gone out for a walk. Instead I went with a friend to a bar for a glass of wine and lunch. I did chose a salad (mind you, I'd hate to know how much sweet chilli sauce was on it)... and only had one glass of wine, not 3, but still. Came back feeling more sorry for myself and decided I wasnt going to go to aqua. I was going to resign myself to the fact that I was going to gain weight at my weigh in on Friday and basically give up for a week, or 6 depending on my foot. I posted on the WW boards at this time because there were cupcakes, clices, friands and muffins in the staff kitchen and although I wanted to give up, I didnt actually want to eat that food, that was going overboard so decided to keep my hands busy and my mind off the delights in the room next door...

Lalapurple (Jen) - I dont think I've read you on the boards, but thank you for finding my mojo. And giving it back :)
Chelseapop (Leanne) - Thank you for that challenge. I accept. And thank you for not letting me make excuses.
Powerof+thinking (Lyn) - Really? I dont think I've ever been anyones inspiration. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I am in control, thank you for reminding me of that.
Maigan - I am going to print that list and put it on my fridge. A photo would never work with me wandering, but that list will. Thank you.
Panorama-A-Set (Cherie) - Post before you pick. Good sentence. If that works for you, I am willing to try it too (its that or ban all the bad food in the world!!!). Thank you.
Anoka (Annie) - you have become one of my favourites. I hope you dont mind me saying this - but I feel like you are my mum on here. You always say the right things and make me feel better. Thank you for making me feel like I can do anything.

OK thats it for tonight. I have written something way too big, longer than I intended. But I just wanted to get it all out. And thank you agin!!

Good night :) xx